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posted by J. is dead. at 7:00 PM

eXpressive: 5/10Practical: 4/10Physical: 5/10Giver: 7/10

You are a RSYG--Reserved Sentimental Physical Giver. This makes you a Nice Guy/Nice Girl.Oh, poor RSYG. You're the one all your friends of your target sex *should* be dating when you have to watch them go out with jerks. You're the sweet one that the lead in a romantic comedy ends up with after s/he learns a valuable lesson. You're the best friend, the chaperone and the shoulder to cry on when you should be the lover. Well, no one ever said people were smart. You dislike conflict -- you prefer to express yourself through action, not discussion -- but you know it is necessary. This means you are more likely to tackle an issue before it grows, but you're also more likely to stop fighting before the issue is resolved to your satisfaction. This isn't necessarily a bad thing -- it's kind of a nice compromise between fighting about everything and fighting about nothing -- but you have to remember to look out for your own interests sometimes. You have a strong sexual appetite, but it seems so out of place with the rest of your persona that people find it hard to believe. Often they try to shield you from sexual content -- it's ridiculous, but you can use it to your advantage: everybody wants someone clean in the kitchen and dirty in the bedroom. That's you. You don't want to cheat, but you might. Especially since it's only when you're in a relationship that you start getting the attention from your target sex that you should have been getting all along. Your experiences could make you misanthropic if you weren't so tenderhearted. A lot of RSITs think they're RSYGs. They're not. You'll end up with someone who deserves you in the end.Of the 132155 people who have taken this quiz, 3.4 % are this type.

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posted by J. is dead. at 9:57 AM

So I've been away for a while now. I've made some mistakes this past year and I'm finally starting to forgive myself for them. For the past number of years, I've been in a downward spiral and now it's time to take control of my life.

Anyway, this post was supposed to go up on 10/7/04. Enjoy.

You know, it’s not everyday you get to take in life and enjoy it. For the first time in a long time, I actually sat outside and watched people go by without a care in the world. I even had a cute girl say hi to me when she was walking by. It’s always good to feel appreciated, even with a simple hello. I’m sure she’s probably forgotten all about it, but for me to have someone even acknowledge my presence made me feel all warm inside. I don’t know what it is, but I really feel at peace right now. I don’t know what it is, but I thank the good Lord I can appreciate life in a positive manner. I mean, I have a lot to be thankful for; roof over my head, clothes on my back, food in my belly, family and friends that care for me, a steady job. What can anyone else ask for?

I’m just really feeling chill right now; I think it must be the mango smoothie with pearls I’m downing right now.

I was thinking about a quote. If what you want doesn’t make you happy, why want more? And that’s true. All the things that I’ve bought, the tennis racquets, all the magazines, the pron and related items, all the clothes, heck even all the times I went out to eat at a nice steak place doesn’t even matter that much. It never made me happy. In the end it just made things worse. I was never content with it, always thinking more would be the answer. Well it really wasn’t. I’m just content. As far as racquets go I’m actually gonna stick with one now. I basically have the right setup for strings and tension as well. I don’t need to buy new equipment. Car? Sure, I was thinking of getting a new one, but I’m still sticking with the one that I have because I promised myself no new car until the one I have is 10 years old. I don’t need that added responsibility of paying for another car payment at this moment. I did let loose and buy a bike, a 2001 Yamaha YZF-R6. Paid in full, it’s my latest toy but also my new commuter vehicle.

I don’t know if I’ve changed much since I’ve last written, but I’ve learned some important things. First of all, stress sucks. I’m trying to live without the worries and pains of everyday life. Just take life for what it is regardless if it’s good or bad. For the longest time stress used to be my motivation and it took its toll on me. In fact stress was a way of life. Add a copious amount of caffeine and a lack of sleep and you got one cranky person. Well not anymore. I don’t want to live on the edge of sanity ever again.

posted by J. is dead. at 11:28 AM